Tegan Mays

Eileen during the birthing process...she was on her own at this point, I could do no more to help her.

Today I found this amazing photographer, John Santerineross, and I'm just so inspired right now, his image's are quite..confronting but if you try look passed that and try appreciate it for its artistic intent you'll understand what I mean. I love how he takes his inspiration from his dreams and turns it into visual images, barely any of his photos are manipulated, and the scenes he displays his model's in are so dark and haunting...I think its absolutely wonderful.
Here's the link to his website http://www.attis.nu/attis_main.html





He also make's short film's which I adore.
"A disturbingly beautiful look into the mind of a "cutter". Filmed in the style that has made John Santerineross famous, this short art film captures the essence of one of his new images and brings it to life. A young girl shows the inspiration she finds in her somewhat bizarre ritual and shares with us the beauty in an act that most would consider disquieting. Accompanied by wordless song, John's first film is sure to fascinate viewers with the same haunting aesthetic that has made gazing at his photographic images an unforgettable experience"

The dream is coming true for the second time around! I can't fucking wait to see him again. If only I could see Opeth live now then my life will be complete.

I need some help/opinions :) for my mid year assessment which is on Tuesday, I have to do at least 8 photo's and discuss them etc..I've done all the photo's but there's just one which I'm not sure about, whether its necessary to have in there at all, it kind of looks a bit out of place to me...if you could give me your opinion that would be great ^.^



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*freaking out* I really don't think I'm going to handle getting up in front of half of the first year students next Tuesday and show 8 of my photo's, show my visual diary (which they make us treat like an actual "personal" diary) and talk about my work...can I die? Oh and I'm 2nd last for the day, which means I'll be sitting in anxiety for the entire day, wonderful, thank you world :)

Dark is the light, Dark is the light

And everything is ( black. )

So its off to the doctors for me today -_- I thought I might as well get my sickness checked out *just in case* basically because last night I cracked after my father sent me an email with all this information about swine flu and its symptoms, successfully scaring the shit out of me.
Although nothing much would change here at home even if I did have it, mum's pretty much quarantining me herself, disinfecting her hands every 2 seconds, not letting me touch anything and running out of the rooms she is in each time I enter.

Ironically enough, I was the highest bidder this morning for a childrens respiratory mask off ebay, best 55 US cents I ever spent ;)

Its not something that I would expect you to accept, but I did not choose, I was chosen.


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Today didn't work out for me at all. I got to school and was told my first class was canceled, so my entire day of traveling there was pretty pointless because I didn't really need to go to my other classes :P so at first, that was fine with me, me and Jaimy decided to go to Eastland so I could finally get Six feet under season 4...............................

And of course with my luck, the only shop that always has it was closed. All I can say is... Fuck you JB HI-FI fuck you!

I knew I should of just stayed in bed this morning.

On a more happier note I finally bought the Mr photographer necklace I had my eye on from etsy.com for some time now :D I'm quite happy, that website is amazing.

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photo by Richard Avedon, I would love to take a portrait like this.

Tonight I made a Flickr account, basically because my teachers at Uni wanted everyone too,
So if you have one or just want to check some of my work out go here Flickr. and click where it says "Photostream" :) more work will be posted on there as time goes by...

Tomorrow I'll finally be buying Six Feet Under season 4 ♥ my week is going to be a happy week ^.^

Im sitting at my dads work at the moment..and Im absolutely freezing! I cant believe I actually got up at 6 a.m, how am I dealing? Im really not up for uni today, its getting beyond hard for me, and I hate it because Im studying my ultimate passion, my dream, and Im being made to feel like I cant achieve it because I just can't seem to handle the work, its a lot more complicated then I ever could of imagined, and because most of my work is on film not digital its alot easier to fuck up....oh and I have...many times, which I never used to. My head's just not working right at the moment or something. Not to mention everything else thats happening at the moment which is probably effecting my work aswell...
I just cant seem to snap out of this cynical state of mind when it comes to uni..
I feel like I barely have time to breathe anymore.